It has been quite some time now that I have been with my partner and yet everyday with him still feels like brand new. I still get giddy seeing him after work, either when he meets me somewhere or he waits for me at home. I used to believe that that woozy and stirred up feeling only lasts up until the first couple of months of being together. Well, my past relationships were like that: became bland within a year. It isn't the case this time. Wow.
Despite seeing him everyday, sleeping and waking up to his face, I could still feel that enigma of sorts. There's still a yearning to know him more despite "what else?". In the length of our time together, we have never fought majorly. It has always been really petty fights - around twice. Haha. I used to ask him why we never fight and we had resorted to dramatizing a quarrel scenario and we always end up laughing. We're crazy that way.
For months I wanted to get into an argument with him just to see how it would be. I never saw him angry. I never heard him raise his voice (except when he sings :]). The last petty fight, the second one, made me decide otherwise. As that immature issue loomed and created the "distance" (because when you fight, there's a distance, right?)I got scared. I did not like how it felt eventhough it wasn't something of a big deal. I will never want to get into a fight with him. NO.
While other couples text each other the usual "Where are you, what are you doing, i love you", he texts me "wear your smile and be beautiful". This reminds me that whenever I enter the door of our house, I leave all work stress and worries behind and wear my smile - because he's there and I would not need anything else. Right from the beginning, he had always made me want to become a better person; not with words or with anything he tells me but just by being his usual self. He has a heart bigger than himself.
Who would have thought this probinsyanong rockstar from the orbit of Mars and Jupiter would land at my hands? The stars and the moon conspired to give this gift to me and I am extremely grateful. I am in love and I love being in love.
Shine on and be happy!!!
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Just beCause
Jeez. I'm turning 28 on the 23rd. Aiks. For the past 10 years, I could not recall a memorable birthday celebration. Haha. It's either my special day turns out to be ordinary, or something else is more important than celebrating it, or nobody bothers to make it extra special but me. C'mon, I spent my debut doing a fashion show for someone else's debut (her cotillon was the fashion show).
This year, being active and all in the local indie music scene, I planned on having a charity gig for the streetchildren. We've done it (on another prod) last Christmas and it was a success. I'm doing it again. I just want to give back. I feel blessed the past year and a half - having my partner and all... 8 artists/musicians agreed to play during the gig at D Bar, proceeds will go to a feeding program for street kids. I have coordinated with my friend, Jad's mom regarding the charity house. Hmmm. I hope it becomes successful. Luckily, Paulo - the bar's main man, agreed to do this with me. He's got a good heart and a soft spot for street kids too. I just need to campaign for it well so donations would grow. I'm not really counting much on the money we'll be getting on the gig night itself, but on the financial donations people around me might spare. *CROSSES FINGERS*
It's a great feeling to be able to help out and see these children's smiles. Wish me luck!!!
Shine on and be happy!!!
This year, being active and all in the local indie music scene, I planned on having a charity gig for the streetchildren. We've done it (on another prod) last Christmas and it was a success. I'm doing it again. I just want to give back. I feel blessed the past year and a half - having my partner and all... 8 artists/musicians agreed to play during the gig at D Bar, proceeds will go to a feeding program for street kids. I have coordinated with my friend, Jad's mom regarding the charity house. Hmmm. I hope it becomes successful. Luckily, Paulo - the bar's main man, agreed to do this with me. He's got a good heart and a soft spot for street kids too. I just need to campaign for it well so donations would grow. I'm not really counting much on the money we'll be getting on the gig night itself, but on the financial donations people around me might spare. *CROSSES FINGERS*
It's a great feeling to be able to help out and see these children's smiles. Wish me luck!!!
Shine on and be happy!!!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Priests and Charisma
In observance of the Holy Week, there were selected and limited shows on all the local channels, most of which are in line with the whole Holy Week celebration. Last Saturday, we chanced upon a Lenten Recollection show on ABS-CBN as we got home. For some reason, apart from I was cooking dinner, we did not change the channel. There was this bishop (I forgot his name, my bad) giving the lecture.
He was humorous and serious at the same time. He was never boring. One reason why I lost that interest to go to church was because some priests do not get anywhere with their homilies. There were even times that I thought I understood better whichever scripture or homily topic he was trying to explain. Forgive me for not being a believer of religion much. Don't get me wrong. I have my faith. It's the structure of my religion that I have lost belief in. Anyhow, going back, the bishop who was in this Lenten Recollection gave really, really nice points on how we live our lives. I won't discuss much what he has said. My point is that, he knew what he was saying and he knew how to say it. He got the attention of everyone in the audience - even me! Imagine that. :]
I'm not sure if charisma is a subject taken in the seminary but if it is and if all priests or seminarians get A's on this subject then maybe there would be more churchgoers. I don't know. This is just me. Kudos to that bishop though. Ang galing!
Shine on and be happy!!!
He was humorous and serious at the same time. He was never boring. One reason why I lost that interest to go to church was because some priests do not get anywhere with their homilies. There were even times that I thought I understood better whichever scripture or homily topic he was trying to explain. Forgive me for not being a believer of religion much. Don't get me wrong. I have my faith. It's the structure of my religion that I have lost belief in. Anyhow, going back, the bishop who was in this Lenten Recollection gave really, really nice points on how we live our lives. I won't discuss much what he has said. My point is that, he knew what he was saying and he knew how to say it. He got the attention of everyone in the audience - even me! Imagine that. :]
I'm not sure if charisma is a subject taken in the seminary but if it is and if all priests or seminarians get A's on this subject then maybe there would be more churchgoers. I don't know. This is just me. Kudos to that bishop though. Ang galing!
Shine on and be happy!!!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Recession - The Big Picture
This saddened me. It's really happening "there".
Scenes from the recession.
Everything shall come to pass...
Shine on and be happy!!!
Scenes from the recession.
Everything shall come to pass...
Shine on and be happy!!!
Strike 3...and you're OUT!
Today I woke up a bit later than my usual waking up time. Ugh, blame it on last night's extended party at the house. It was already 1pm and I was still about to eat my lunch. I ate as fast as I could, without drinking water in between munches. I needed to finish fast or else I'll be late. My work starts at 2pm by the way.
1:15 pm: I headed outside to wait for a cab. It was terribly hot so I shaded myself under the big palm tree.
1:20 pm: It seems like it's Sunday morning. A few cars here and there. No taxi yet, no jeepney. I waited and waited and gave my hair a few flips, checked my nails, shifted weight from leg to leg.
1:25 pm: Still no taxi, no jeepney. My face is sweaty and I felt like running back home to take shower number 2.
1:28 pm: I sent a text message to big dinosaur habeeh, and said there are no PUV's at all. I thought there was a sudden rerouting or there was an accident somewhere up and no vehicles could pass.
As he went out of our house and approached towards where I was, my cellphone beeped. A text message from housemate-friend: STRIKE. DO YOU HAVE WORK? Ngeeeeeek! No PUV's because there's a strike, you idiot!!! Then big dinosaur habeeh came, with a big question mark on his face. "Strike". Hrrrrrrr.
This is part 2 of the strike the PUV drivers staged because of the allegedly high penalty rates LTO is imposing and if LTO does not give in to their demands, the strike will go on for 3 days. C'mon! Why the hell demand for the LTO to lower penalty rates? So the abusive drivers may just go on with all the stupid violations they've been doing on the streets and afford to pay the penalty?! If "not wearing seatbelt" costs P1,200, then wear the seatbelt! If LTO gives in, then they're dumb. If the strike goes on, then the drivers are dumber. Sorry. Just my opinion.
Shine on and be happy!!!
1:15 pm: I headed outside to wait for a cab. It was terribly hot so I shaded myself under the big palm tree.
1:20 pm: It seems like it's Sunday morning. A few cars here and there. No taxi yet, no jeepney. I waited and waited and gave my hair a few flips, checked my nails, shifted weight from leg to leg.
1:25 pm: Still no taxi, no jeepney. My face is sweaty and I felt like running back home to take shower number 2.
1:28 pm: I sent a text message to big dinosaur habeeh, and said there are no PUV's at all. I thought there was a sudden rerouting or there was an accident somewhere up and no vehicles could pass.
As he went out of our house and approached towards where I was, my cellphone beeped. A text message from housemate-friend: STRIKE. DO YOU HAVE WORK? Ngeeeeeek! No PUV's because there's a strike, you idiot!!! Then big dinosaur habeeh came, with a big question mark on his face. "Strike". Hrrrrrrr.
This is part 2 of the strike the PUV drivers staged because of the allegedly high penalty rates LTO is imposing and if LTO does not give in to their demands, the strike will go on for 3 days. C'mon! Why the hell demand for the LTO to lower penalty rates? So the abusive drivers may just go on with all the stupid violations they've been doing on the streets and afford to pay the penalty?! If "not wearing seatbelt" costs P1,200, then wear the seatbelt! If LTO gives in, then they're dumb. If the strike goes on, then the drivers are dumber. Sorry. Just my opinion.
Shine on and be happy!!!
Friday, March 13, 2009
night light
written on: December 08, 2007
it's funny how we sometimes surrender to complete stubborness and just go with instincts. nevermind that we were told not to, nevermind that we were told it would hurt - that it would cause the dreaded and much avoided pain in the gut.
it's funny how we try to stand firm on our answers and show other people we were right even if we know it was not the firm stand at all. all the more funny when we swim into the pool of regret when we realize it is way beyond late to even retract a single word. and then it hits us to the core...we can never get one day back, not a single breath back, not a split second, not a blink...
then we realize how much was lost, how much had gone by. all we can do is sit, stare at the beautiful thing lying in front of us in the night. a beautiful thing we can't touch, get nearer to, hold, smell, kiss. everything just slipped away...just like that.
"try to understand that which you'll never understand" - bleed like me, garbage.
image: fc03.deviantart.com/fs17/f/2007/180/1/2/Gilde
Shine on and be happy!!!
it's funny how we sometimes surrender to complete stubborness and just go with instincts. nevermind that we were told not to, nevermind that we were told it would hurt - that it would cause the dreaded and much avoided pain in the gut.
it's funny how we try to stand firm on our answers and show other people we were right even if we know it was not the firm stand at all. all the more funny when we swim into the pool of regret when we realize it is way beyond late to even retract a single word. and then it hits us to the core...we can never get one day back, not a single breath back, not a split second, not a blink...
then we realize how much was lost, how much had gone by. all we can do is sit, stare at the beautiful thing lying in front of us in the night. a beautiful thing we can't touch, get nearer to, hold, smell, kiss. everything just slipped away...just like that.
"try to understand that which you'll never understand" - bleed like me, garbage.
image: fc03.deviantart.com/fs17/f/2007/180/1/2/Gilde
Shine on and be happy!!!
free me from my own thoughts
last night, i kept on asking big dinosaur for tales. i wanted him to tell me stories from his past as i go to sleep. he did so. my mind drifted towards where his stories came from and i fell asleep - very much like a child being lulled. hah!
he is a good story teller. his songs, although not really that appreciated much yet, are evidences that he knows what to say to send what he felt or feels. it's one reason why i was smitten by him. i remember when he sent me a cd of their songs. two songs made me cry - (loser me, i know!) i felt the pain, the longing, and the hope he had imbued in them.
this morning he asked me why i wanted him to keep on telling me stories. i paused for a moment and then said "i just wanted to go on a vacation - from my own thoughts even for a while"...
he said "you must be tired, don't worry, i'll go travel for you"
music: purple, skunk anansie
weather: wet
hair: tied up
Shine on and be happy!!!
image: thanks to google.
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