Dawn...

after everything that i've known, learned, and experienced this week, i've realized...

that there are people who, no matter what they say or do, can never change.

that in order to mask their tragic lives, people always have the tendency to proclaim greatness.

that even if they say they aren't affected, they are.

that serious, lengthy conversations do not always guarantee a sealed deal - sometimes it's just a ploy for other motives.

there are some who thrive on attention and takes a stab on every possible opportunity to achieve self-gratification.

"love" can be expensive for the desperate. what a pity...

that denial is an illness.

that some people have actually mastered the art of lying. it's when their lies become their truths and they believe all of it even if everyone else does not.

"sorry", most of the time, is just a 5-letter word and does not mean anything.

all of these in one week. people-watching is a great learning tool. i hope next week gives happy wisdom.

Shine on and be happy!!!

A Salute for Cory Aquino

Shine on and be happy!!!

The Need to Escape

When reality bites you, there is always a yearning to escape. Sometimes it's an instinct to find the easiest way out of whatever that is that engulfs your very own spirit. Diverting to shortcuts only lengthens the ordeal sometimes; shortcuts do not guarantee a foolproof way of dealing with life's blows.

Despite having everything you truly need and all the reasons to walk upright, one can not be excused from feeling that certain need to escape when bad lightning strikes. Some deal with it by drowning themselves in pity and tears, while some remain placid and oblivious, but everyone feels that need to just be free of the maelstrom of emotions.

Too much is too much when even breathing is not a steady pace.

(I have to...)
Shine on and be happy!!!

Blogging can be deadly.

I am no expert in blogging. I have no idea on what some blogging terms mean. All I know is that I want to write and take down some of my ideas - more like Dumbledore's pensieve. As I delved into this contemporary way of journal-making and deviated from my used-to-be numerous notebooks, I have happened to come across blog hullabaloos in the past. As much as I wanted NOT to read about them as I have my own burdens to think of, I got sucked into the funnel.

There was the Gucci Gang-Brian Gorrel-Bryanboy-Chuvaness-Dona Victorina scandal (No, di naman ako masyado nagbasa, haha). It involved several high society people and some credible names. It even got into the Wikipedia. There were a lot of character assassinations and name-calling: much like "he said, she said, they said". If I'm not mistaken, it has been one of the most controversial happenings in the blogsphere and up until now, it's remnants are still popping here and there. Then there was the Ala Paredes blog where she got HUGE reactions from people just because they did not like what she wrote. Yes, we have the freedom of speech and all and yes, people would not always agree on things.

Blogging now is one of the most effective tools in creating hysteria from the general public. It can do a lot of good as well a whole lot of BAD. It can be deadly as it can kill someone's character right then and there - with or without justice. Just like false innuendos or hearsays, once it gets published there's no taking it back. Even if the blogger removes that blog, it has already been read by people and an idea has already been etched in their minds.

As I was reading through the controversial blogs, I admit to have been kind of scared to write as transparent as I want to. What if someone who (accidentally) passes through my blog finds something I wrote offensive? What if they attack me? (Feeling naman ako na may nagbabasa noh? Haha) But then I thought, I am responsible for whatever I write. I would not write it if it was not an honest writing from my heart. If someone disagrees and disses me, then let it be. They have their own piece to say and I have mine.

Shine on and be happy!!!

Evil Triumphs When Good Men Do Nothing

As I was browsing through my files in the hopes of cleaning up, I came across the image above and then I remembered I saved it last year when I browsed updates on Col. Ariel Querubin. I was moved by this image - "Evil triumphs when good men do nothing." It had an impact on me, moreso that a military personnel like him was the one holding the sign.

Like many others, he was not able to fathom any of the bullshit anymore. The only difference is that he spoke up and expressed his sentiments and chose to do it in a bigger way. He risked a lot of what he is and who he is just to be able to try and get the message across. Now, Col. Ariel Querubin is running for a senatorial seat. I hope he wins if it means that he would not stop trying getting the message across - that it's now a high time for everyone to wake up and begin the chain of changes for the country. The current campaigns and call for action are signs of the supposed "changes" and in my heart I wish they are not just a fad.

Trillanes was a fad and now where is he?

Shine on and be happy!!!

Inspiration: Sarah Gaugler

Inspiration: Sarah Gaugler



I was browsing a local website dedicated to vintage clothing the other night and the writer featured Sarah Gaugler. Her picture was familiar thus I Googled her name and I landed on her Deviantart and Multiply.





Model
Tattoo Artist
Fine Arts graduate
Vocalist of Turbo Goth
A mighty graphic artist
Drew for a variety of famous brands, orgs, and companies
Has a fine taste in clothing and style.
Beautiful.
Smart.
and Tattooed.

...everything that I wanted to become. I salute her!

Shine on and be happy!!!

Just One of 'em Days

Kakaloka!

I've been feeling weird these past few days. Joseph comments I have not been smiling and that I was not my usual self. Main culprit: I overshot on my budget...well, not really. Rather, I was expecting a soundy "kaching" and unforch, it didn't land on my hands. (To client: I heytchu!).

Just a while ago, my co-worker and I discussed money, or the lack thereof. I told her that it's these days when you just have the super urge to buy lots of stuff, everything you see is eye candy and sumptuous food never fails to tease your palate and the more you fantasize of them, the more you feel grumpy because you know you can't have them just yet. I've been thinking of buying this and that shoes, getting a haircut or curl my hair, purchasing new jeans, coloring my hair a different tone, getting my son new kicks, etc... What's offbeat is that I know for sure that when I have my pockets and wallet refilled (in a few days), I will forget all these urges and cravings. What gives?!

Upon reaching work last night (yes, I am on the graveyard shift and no, I am not in a call center - I may be a security guard, hehe), Joseph texted something like "it's days like these we know we're alive because we are undergoing some adjustments and bits of challenges". It's when I realized that it's just one of 'em days where the stars and the planets do not conspire for you to have your way and shit does NOT happen everyday.

Shine on and be happy!!!